Cobwebs.

Its been so long since i posted anything.

life has been busy.

12 proj

4 exam papers over the course of 4 days.

survived it.

from now till june 4th would be work mostly.

back at my usual place.

the place where i dun feel like a fish out of water.

enuff abt work.

those who know me, will know i’m still single.

kinda gave up.

those who know, knows

those who don’t i would appreciate you not asking.

thats about the whole update i guess.

PS. if all goes well, i’ll fly off to swiss on the 1st of july 9am flight.

Apologies

A huge sorry to everyone and anyone who has shown concern or are still concern.

I flipped. I totally broke down mentally.

I sincerely apologies to those affected, mainly my grp for FCPM, my close classmates (u all know who u are.)

my life is a huge mess thats probably the best explanation,

my mom is not in the best of health,
i’m still affect by the fact that i wasn’t there when she had her op.

+ the fact of the weight of the bank loan i took on for this course.
which means after i grad, i’ll be 40k in debt.

most ppl will still ask me y i still continue with my course,
I choose this path is due to my passion, partly i decided to get a degree is that
my mom wants me to get a degree its her wish.

With such stuff on my mind + the juggling of work, friends and a special someone,
my mind was in super overtime.

certain factors made me snap and the whole world can came crashing down.

in need of miracles

another year is coming to an end.
normally this time of the year is always associated with joy.

but i dunno y i juz dun feel it this year.

is it the constant factor of regrets?
is it the constant fear of lonliness?

lesson i learnt.

life i let go.

each steps tend to cling on to my already weary body.

i grew up alone 65% of the time.
perhaps thats the reason y.
reason y i dun talk to ppl about wats on my mind.

 

can you teach me what i’ve already learnt?

endless rain

exam period…… sian……

well revision is filled with fun ppl. hahaha.
woosh? lol

well over the last few days is rain and rain and more rain. sigh.
makes one feel so slpy.
my heart goes to those that withstand the rain during the subaru challenge.

on a lighter note, i was called a lazy ass. HAHA. =P

 

PS: this post is so random. cuz i dunno wat to write and i’m tooo lazy to touch my notes.

As promised.

2 days ago another quake hit indonesia. the recent spat of natural disasters are too close for comfort.

This influx of events could either strenghten mankind or might just kick start the cogs of the Apocalypse.

Just a thought. what if a major chain of events rendered this advanced society to primitive. would we the younger generation actually survive the change?

i promise a post soon

saw

23

Just hit 23 over the weekends. well i thought i should rewrite my blog. since its like i’m embarking on a new journey.

things that happen for the past 8 years has been full of ups and downs.

memories that are both good and bad.

slowly i’m letting go the bad memories. like a snake shedding its old skin. i’m vulnerable.

I’m a person who wants to be in control of my environment. what to persue. but its been getting tougher. whispers are being heard. health is being stretched. sometimes i wonder is there someone up there.

humans are pretty much similar. in times of need. they seek solace.

a quote of my friend, “I take a break is not because of excuses, I just don’t want to regret with the grades i’ll be getting if i pushed on.”